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The Drug In Me Is You
I opened it to find death staring in my face
The feel of mortal stalking still reverberates
Everywhere I go I drag the coffin just in case
My bodies tremblin' sends shivers down my spine
Adrenaline kicks in shifts into overdrive,
Your secrets keep you sick your lies keep you alive
Snake eyes every single time you roll with crooked dice
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past im praying feet dont fail me now!
I've lost my god damn mind,
It happens all the time,I cant believe I'm actually
Meant to be here,
Trying to consume,
The drug in me is you
And I'm so high on misery
Cant you see!
I got these questions always running through my head
So many things that I would like to understand
If we are born to die and we all die to live
Then whats the point of living life if it just contradicts?
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past im praying feet dont fail me now!
I've lost my god damn mind
It happens all the time
I cant believe I'm actually
Meant to be here
Trying to consume,
The drug in me is you
And I'm so high on misery
Can't you see!
I've lost
Myself
You tried to reach me but you just cant help me
So long
Goodbye
You tried to save me it wont work this time!
Cause now
I've lost my fucking mind
And theres no fucking time
I can't believe im actually
Meant to be here
Trying to consume,
The drug in me is you
And I'm so high on misery
Can't you see?
10.6.11
The Drug In Me Is You
31.5.11
Raised by Wolves
I was sustain by the sound,
By the angels singing me to sleep,
Now my feet are leaving the ground.
Am I dead or am I dreaming instead,
A Cornucopia of Opiates are flooding my head.
I’m insane, that’s a start,
All it takes is a spark to ignite my badntentions,
And to what I do best to your heart,
Don’t be fooled, I was raised by the Wolves.
Now the moon takes its full, so you know I wont play by the rules.
I will never sleep!
Spill my blood for you.
You let me down,
One to many times!
Some way, somehow we’re falling out,
Caught in-between my enemies!
No way, not now, I won't back down.
I draw the line with you and me!
You’re what I started, now disregarded,
One day they’ll see, it was always me.
Due to mistakes that I have made to this day,
I am trapped inside a Dillinger,
Villains only of thinking of ways to get out of this God awful place.
I just learned that my fate is something I cannot escape so,
Sound the alarms, we were dead from the start.
It’s a never ending system,
Break me down, tear me apart.
Don’t be fooled, I was raised by the Wolves.
Now the moon takes its full, So you know I wont play by the rules.
I will never sleep!
Spill my blood for you.
You let me down,
One to many times!
Some way, somehow we’re falling out,
Caught in-between my enemies!
No way, not now, I won't back down.
I draw the line with you and me!
You’re what I started, Now disregarded,
One day they’ll see, it was always me.
This is the end of you,
This is where I draw the line.
And I will live.
This war is mine.
Spill my blood for you,
One to many times.
Some way, somehow we’re falling out,
Caught in-between my enemies!
No way, not now, I won't back down.
I draw the line with you and me!
You’re what I started, now disregarded,
One day they’ll see, it was always me.
They’ll see, it was always me.
2.4.11
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¿24?
Larga espera, ya todos lo saben, nose cuantas horas de cola para verlos. Los vi entrar, a un metro, son perfectos, hermosos como en fotos y videos, gracias Juan y los amigos por bancarnos en la cola, son unos capos, gracias a todos los putos por COLARSE! pedazo de conchudos inservibles. Despues de hambre, de ganas de mear, de lluvia, sol, calor, frio, cansancio, los vi, los vi mejor que nunca, el recital superó mis expectativas y a pesar de quedar descalza, pasarle por ensima a un patovica, y quedar afonica, ELLA ME TOCÓ LA MANO, y eso nadie ni nada me lo va a poder borrar... gracias por hacerme TAN FELIZ. Mi mano derecha es sagrada ahora. Los amo
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29.12.10
Déjà vu
Hacía meses que no sentía este dolor. Ya no me acordaba lo que sufrir tanto por una persona. Es bueno y es malo, es bueno porque me siento una persona, soy de carne y hueso... tengo corazón y se siente. Es malo porque el dolor es mas fuerte que yo, me domina, me manipula. Escucho la misma lista de canciones una y otra vez y me acuerdo mas de vos, de tu sonrisa, de tu mirada, de tu persona. Me acuerdo de verte dormir y cierro los ojos y le pido a Dios que me lleve a ese momento y lugar otra vez. Cierro los ojos y deseo, más que nada en el mundo, estar a tu lado otra vez. Me siento enferma, me siento destruida... Nada pudo calmar esto, ni la música... y eso ya me hace creer que es diferente. Nunca hubo nada que la música no pudo frenar, hasta hoy. Para todo hay una primera vez, se dice... parecería que esta es mi primera vez. La primera vez que me enamoro de alguien, y después de un año y medio es hora de que me de cuenta, ¿No? No tengo ganas de recibir respuestas de nadie, porque todos me dicen lo mismo, porque nadie entiende lo que uno siente, todos resuelven las cosas por un “olvidate, y listo”, “dejalo pasar, ya vas a encontrar otra persona”... pero la gente no entiende que yo no quiero a otra persona, la gente no entiende que prefiero sufrir, morirme llorando, hasta derramar sangre por los ojos, antes que olvidarme de vos y obligarme a amar a una persona que nunca va a llegarte ni a las rodillas. Nadie va a significar nunca más de lo que vos signifcaste para mi, por más lindo, más bueno, más tierno, más divertido. Porque cuando para una persona alguien es Perfecto, no significa no tener defectos, significa amar sus defectos, estar enamorada de sus problemas, sus cosas feas, estar enamorada de alguien con todo. Porque si no los tuvieses no serías vos. Y yo te quiero a vos, no quiero una versión mejorada.
Tampoco quiero fingir estar felíz, fingir una sonrisa de oreja a oreja, sabiendo que por dentro mi corazón se pudre y se vuelve cada vez mas oscuro... y si es necesario estar toda la noche llorando y escribiendo esto con la poca fuerza que tengo en los dedos, lo voy a hacer, porque sacar líquido de mis ojos no es suficiente para calmar este dolor que siento, que con esto debería bajar, y desvanecerse, pero no se por que extraña razon eso nunca pasa. Hace horas que intento frenar la lluvia en mis ojos, pero las gotas no se extinguen. Creo que todos tenemos que sufrir, por lo menos regularmente, y creo que toda la felicidad que pasé el ultimo tiempo, la cual no tuvo espacios tristes, se acumuló y en este momento esta explotando y arrasando conmigo. Es horrible, y no vale la pena. Como dije muchas veces, me siento una hormiga en el mundo que no puede hacer nada por nada ni por nadie, que necesita ayuda de otras cosas para poder salir adelante, y si un humano está caminando por su vida, la pisa, y sin compasión, muere, sin razon, sin si quiera haberle hecho mal a nadie, más que a uno mismo. Eso siento, siento que así, con las defensas bajas, cualquier humano puede venir y tirarme abajo, y cuando uno está abajo... es muy dificil volver a subir. Por eso no me queda mas que pedirle a Dios que me ayude, y volver a escribir como cuando solía sufrir... viejos tiempos que están volviendo. Viejos tiempos que me gustaría que fuesen viejos, pero el presente... es una de las pocas cosas de la vida que no se puede evitar.
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Escape The Fate's Max Green talks The Heroin Diaries
A book can be a powerful thing. Just ask Max Green, bassist and founding member of Escape the Fate, whose new self-titled album came out on Interscope last week. Green, who has been very open to the public about his struggles with drug addiction, found solace and help in Nikki Sixx’s recent memoir The Heroin Diaries, which details the Motley Crue bassist’s ongoing issue with heroin. Here Green discuss how he discovered this book, why it’s helped him and how he believes it can aid others.
Describe this book in one sentence.
Comforting.
How did you first come across this book?
I was dating this girl and she was into reading a lot. She bought a book for me called The Dirt by Motley Crue. I read that book and it was a really good book. In the back of the book it said Nikki Sixx was coming out with a book called The Heroin Diaries about his struggle with addiction and things like that. It goes deeper into his life than The Dirt did. So I was really interested in reading that book because at the time I was struggling with an addition myself. I read the back of the book and read some reviews about it and had to get it. He holds nothing back. All the nitty gritty is there. The worst of the worst and the best of the best. The goal is to let people know they’re not alone and not to let it happen to them and if it has happened to them he can relate.
How long ago did you first read it?
I probably read it two years ago.
How many times have you read it?
I’ve read it twice. Once during my first struggle [with addiction] and once during my second.
Have you passed it on to anyone else?
I have. That’s how much of an impact this book made in my life. I’ve recommended it to kids at our shows. I put my whole life out there for the whole world to know— to know when I’m doing well, to know when I’m winning my battle against drugs and addiction. If kids ask, I tell the truth. When they ask, “Hey how did you do this?” I recommend this book to them.
What is it about the book that is specifically helpful?
When you’re in that zone and you need help, you feel like no one understands you and no one can relate to you. But reading that book it’s crazy because he lets himself be a human being. He shows the world that he’s a human being. A lot of the stuff he did in that book when his life was spinning out of control were a lot of the same things I was doing in my life. I thought, “No one understands, I’m just a terrible person.” But no, I’m not. This guy is someone I idolize who has influenced me as a visionary in his band. That’s me. I’m started my band and everything in my band is my vision. I look up to Nikki Sixx for all that stuff and to know I went down the same path he did and I did a lot of the same things he did brought comfort to me and made me feel like I’m not alone.
Is there a specific emotion you associate with the book?
I’m not sure what emotion this would be but it gave me chills. Almost every chapter gave me chills once or twice.
Do you keep a diary of your struggles the way Nikki Sixx did?
Actually after that book it inspired me to keep a journal. I try to do it on a daily basis. I don’t go any longer than a week without writing in it. This book is a real life changer. For someone like me anyway. I know there’s other people out there like me too.
Who should read this book?
Really the book is more than just for people struggling with addiction. It’s also really just a good story as well. It has such tremendous highs and lows. It really takes you to another place. The book is for anyone struggling with a problem or something like that, but it’s really just a crazy book that any normal person can like. And when I say normal person I mean any random person on the street. I could probably recommend this book to any person and they’d go tell their friends about it after they read it. It’s really interesting.
Is this the type of book you usually read?
Yeah. I’m not a big reader. For me to read a book I need something that will keep your attention. I need something that’s a page-turner. I recommend Dave Navarro’s Don’t Try This At Home. That’s a great read. The Dirt by Motley Crue is a great book to read. I need a book where shit’s going down and I want to keep reading.
Has it influenced your music?
I’ve never really thought about it, but I would say yeah. It makes you feel strong at the end of the day. It gives you chills. It motivated me to get out there. Not just sit around, but take action. I remember reading that book when we were in Australia and I was kicking a lot of withdrawals. I’d go and read that book and then I’d put on an amazing show because it gave me power in a weird way. I’d go out and I’d do the best that I could.
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ESCAPE THE FATE PULLS OUT OF EUROPEAN TOUR WITH BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE AS BASSIST MAX GREEN ENTERS REHAB
Santa Monica, California, November 11, 2010 - Escape The Fate will not be joining Bullet For My Valentine on their European tour that kicks off this weekend in Helsinki, Finland. Instead the band will remain in the states to support their band mate, bassist Max Green, as he enters an undisclosed rehab for drug and alcohol addiction.
“Max needs his friends and family by his side, so we’re not gonna leave him,” says lead singer Craig Mabbitt. “Max is one of my best friends and has never done this band wrong in any way shape or form. It's very honorable of him to admit he has a problem and wants to seek help for the longevity of his life and this band. I'm so sorry to the fans, but so proud of Max. He needs our love and support through this rough time in his life, so let's give it to him. Our soldiers never let us down and we will be back to play Europe and the two London dates very soon. We love you guys.”
Escape The Fate will headline a string of European dates in early 2011. Tickets for the two London headline shows that were scheduled for December 6th and 7th at the Islington Academy will be honored when these shows are rescheduled early next year. Check www.escapethefate.com for updates.
10.11.10
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this
Such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
Yeahh..
But lovers always come
And lovers always go
And no one's really sure
Who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time
To lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
Then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain
Do you need some time
On your own
Do you need some time
All alone
Everybody needs some time
On their own
Don't you know you need some time
All alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you
Sometimes I need some time
On my own
Sometimes I need some time
All alone
Everybody needs some time
On their own
Don't you know you need some time
All alone
And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain
Don't ya think that you
Need somebody
Don't ya think that you
Need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Don't ya think that you
Need somebody
Don't ya think that you
Need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Don't ya think that you
Need somebody
Don't ya think that you
Need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Don't ya think that you
Need somebody
Don't ya think that you
Need someone
Everybody needs somebody